OK, I need to slow down and smell the roses

Yeah, yeah, I work too much...shit I have been hearing that a lot lately from you people...you friends...friends what are those??? Yes it has become that bad. But it is time for redirection. It has been one hell of a year.
New friends, lost friends, reconnecting with old friends, friends that were never really friends, friends when I needed them most
No job, side jobs, new jobs, quitting jobs, shit jobs, creating jobs,
business, business woman, life woman, business-life, life is business,
addictions, addiction transference, confronting those with, admission of my own, friends with, disorders, therapy, therapists, and plays about them all.
New dreams, lost dreams, dreams put on the shelf, and dreams that were really nightmare (..... thank god I woke up).
birthdays, 30, anniversaries, good and bad, 1 yr of quitting, 4 yrs here, 1 yr doing it my way
pups and almost losing pups, knowing I will lose pups...damn I love ma pups.
tevo and nascar, too much tevo and sopranos, BB AS, and seeing my self on tv, and my friends.
Texas, New York, New Jersey, and Home.....seasons, home, travel, parents and family, and learning about my past.
Lost love, true love, forever love, leaving love, pain, dating, internet dating (I wasn't the ONLY ONE), being single, new love, imaginary love, and loving myself.
Soo I get it, for now....it always changes and you gotta change with it, but you gotta slow down and you gotta smile and you gotta laugh...and you gotta smell the roses ..
I will continue to stand up for ma-self. I will try not to hurt myself or those I love and I will try to spend more time with ma friends, who without, none of those things would matter anyway. :)

I made a baby!

I just got a call from a client who took the D.A.N.C.E. series from me which is my one-on-one six week class. She completed the class a few months ago. She did it as a surprise for her boyfriend and at the end was really quite good at her routine. Apparently the night she finally danced for him he was really impressed and the night ended up being pretty steamy! And now she is pregnant and she and the doctor have traced the conception day back to the night of dancing!!! Crazy!! The first StripXpertease baby!
Well, I'm glad some body's getting some!

Leaving Austin...for good.

Ohhhh boy. Well I am back in NYC today and EXHAUSTED!!! So first, I just wanna say sorry to all my Texas peeps that I missed this time around. I was more busy than I ever expected, but the training went well and I think, no, I KNOW Saralynn will be an amazing instructor. Expanding my business out of NYC is extremely frightening to me, but I am trying to embrace it.
This trip was so difficult on so many levels, and I have to say I am relieved to be home. Yes, home. I realized this time around more than ever before that this is home now. This is where my life is, and this is where I would stay. I cried when I landed in Texas, right there in the airport. Things seemed so different than every other time I had been home, I say home because that is what I called Austin when I recalled this story to my friends.

But back to my story, I actually cried as I walked off of the plane into the sunshine of the Lone Star state. I thought, wait ...don't I usually cry when I leave? What am I doing I asked myself. Why am I crying? I was dreading this trip ...never before was I fearful to come back "home" but this time I had butterflies when I landed. Expanding, waiting, hoping, longing, loving, losing, begging, ....crying, wishing, accepting.....all of these things flowing in and out.
I mean I know the surface reason why I shed a few tears, but really it was because I knew somewhere inside than when I returned to that airport in 10 days it would be to finally really leave Austin.
And I did, not willingly mind you, but I did, and I think I will probably cry again, but for now, I am OK.